Its a still in progress, quite a slow song, and actually my first, written on my phone when I'm coming back from places or get bored.
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VERSE
Have i changed so much so nobody knows me.
Am i just having a bad week where nobody calls me back?
One minute is different to the rest of eternaty.
But you can change my path, by going back.
CHORUS
There's always been one on my shoulder,
We matched in everyway.
But your new and we are older,
We're counting time as it floats away.
VERSE
Do I try and make it better,
Make it turn my way,
Or do I wait it out and see,
CHORUS
VERSE
Am i just growing away from them,
Whilst finding a new direction,
Do i know who i am anymore,
I think I'll leave it up to reason.
Played with,
Used,
Then put back into the box,
You try so hard to be the one which is picked,
But then your out-grown,
You only get played with if the other toys are lost.
You are just a "shut me up toy" now,
To be drawn on and tortured.
But you were once loved,
And that time is back when nostalgia sets in.
But i cant wait for you to catch up with me,
And i cant live in the past and drown myself in memories.
So I'll go away,
Where i cant be a hand-me-down.
No breeze of life to flow through the window,
No breath of fresh air,
I'm there when you need me,
But you change when your with Your people,
Damit, this is about you again!
Why do you penetrate my thoughts every time i'm low?
How?!
I'm over you!
Is it because you make me low?
To see you happy, with other people?
I know i should be glad for you.
I thought you might see and recognize when I'm down,
Ha, no.
You ask me but i say no.
Fair comment,
But you know I'm down still and you let me go,
I don't do that, i would make you feel better.
We aren't boyfriend and girlfriend but I'm still there for you 100%,
I hope you are,
I hope someone is.
I keep it inside not to burden others,
espially you,
I know that people have things of their own.
The people i was close to have themselves or cant be bothered.
All rarely text me back,
People further away than they have ever been.
I spend time talking but it never gets me anywhere,
Maybe I'll just go it alone next time,
See how far it takes me,
it wont be like this cos i no I'll have tried,
and you cant kick a man for trying,
but it has been done,
kicked down from a podium by a stranger that was getting more familiar,
i did not see it coming at all!
Oh how the world changes!
Sometimes i just like to say "fuck you world",
and that time is now.
People can always shame you,
Be bigger than you,
more talented,
And you, will always be you.
But this is all you need to be, to get through life.
Hold on, pull yourself up and I will too.
Well had my normal day of work, as usual, twas ok, as usual...
UNTILL!!!! Mr Tommy P came in! Wooooooo! Made my day that did, pretty stressed otherwise. Well we had a bit of a chat and decided to meet for lunch at z pub. So we had a natter 'bout his trip and then my lunch break ended. Poo! Lol!
But anyhoo, end of the day was coming, and as I'd seen Tom earlier I was still in a good mood. Then went outside to put the shutters down and see mum who was picking me up. And I hear a "Maaaaatt" from the other side of the road. So I looked over and its Zoe and Brooke, so I wave back and wave them over. They eventually make their way over and so I meet them outside the shop. Say hi, like you do...then that was it basically! WHY CANT I THINK OF THINGS TO SAY!!! ARGH!! I was speaking to Zoe quite a bit and kept looking at Brooke so-as not to cut her from the convosation, but I could not think of much to say to her at ALL! It sucks big time! Now I just seem boring! ARGH! Well i suppose I am boring see'ing as though nothing really happens in my life! But damn it! My only excuse is that I like her so i get rushed for things to say... Lame! But hopefully if I see her again, I wont "huck it" up!
Over and Out,
Meee
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